當6非呢月離開了
7月的到來
就表示我的暑假已經開始了一段時間了
但是這10天的時間
卻完全讓我感覺不到暑假的氣息
因為忙著搬家、出去走，然後到最後幾天的對著電腦廢
好吧
原諒我吧
我似乎又開始了去年未開學前的狀態
不敢想像如果我這個暑假回家
會是哪一種的生活呢。。
短短的暑假
我就要搬4次家
真的是流浪漂泊的日子
第一次搬點東西去以後的家，第二次幫朋友搬，第三次離開這學年的房間搬去另一間，第四次8月的搬家是我最後的歸宿
我真的不想再搬了！！！！
很累啊
好啦，這不是重點吧
我想暑假要怎麼過才是最重點的
因為大一的暑假只有一次
我的青春又這樣過去了
時間真的不多啊
好多好多的事情想做
但是卻沒有什麼動力
燕怡
加油吧
不要讓自己再次錯過了
P/s: 你怎麼會聰明到把日記都搬去了新家==
這個月和下個月該怎麼辦呢。。。
我想念你，我的日記
2014年6月2日 星期一
7 SIGNS THAT YOU’RE BEING TRUE TO YOURSELF AND FULFILLING YOUR DESTINY
All successful people share some habits and world views. Finding your destiny or your purpose in life is not the most easily achievable task, as it takes time to get to know yourself.
But, the more you know yourself, the more you will be certain of what you want in life and where your destiny lies. Once you start planning out the map of your goals, you will be able to work toward success by taking productive steps forward each day.
For all of you who feel like life can be better, why not make it better starting now?
Here is a little guide to check on your progress:
1. You know what you want in life
This is probably the most essential aspect of living. Potential choices surround us each day and each decision adds colors to our life’s painting.
It is important to know what you want, both in this moment and in the long run, because only then will you be able to take daily small steps toward making your goals realities and putting your ambitions into action.
No painter started creating without having an original idea in his or her mind — even if he or she eventually chose to alter the colors and change the whole painting. This is because no one becomes a painter without having the drive to paint. The key word here is “drive.”
It might take a little while to discover what exactly you truly aspire to be or do, but it is worth your time to research. You can walk without a specific destination in mind and still eventually get somewhere. However, is “anywhere” good enough for you? Or, do you want to be in the right place?
2. You are not afraid to make decisions
There are many people who can’t stand being pressured to face dilemmas. In most cases, these people would rather someone else make their decisions. Unfortunately, though, too many people nowadays study the wrong course, work the wrong job or date the wrong person. They end up being unhappy and they’re aware of it. But, what’s truly worrisome is that they continually make the same ill-fated choices and live lives that provide dissatisfaction.
Making decisions is not always easy. What’s more, making decisions means changing, but change is inevitable, anyway. No day is the same as its predecessor and no people behave completely the same as they did long ago.
Running away from making decisions is similar to ignoring problems. But, the problems won’t go away — in fact, they might become bigger issues if ignored.
You have the power to create the life you’ve always wanted. You simply need to stand firm behind choices you make. Come to think of it, every single choice we make has the potential to be life-changing and that is the main reason why we shouldn’t be afraid to take decisions. Listen to your heart and you won’t go wrong.
3. You are not afraid to make mistakes
One of the reasons people are afraid to make choices is because they’re afraid they might make mistakes.
But remember, none of us are born with manuals that explain how to have a good life and none of us are perfect. Mistakes are a part of life. We live; we try; we learn. Everything is part of the experience.
Living a life limited to routines, familiarity and safety will only decrease the quality of your life. Instead, learn to embrace mistakes and consider them as the means to the future that you picture in your mind.
4. You always dream too big
You set your goals high and people call you a dreamer. You stand out from the crowd and you’re brave enough to express your opinions. You have a wild imagination and you’re always full of ideas. Does this sound like you? Good. Most successful people were once visionaries. What’s more, most successful people owe their success to the fact that they’re doing what they love.
Once you discover your inner drive, all you need to do is focus your energy on developing it. The sweetest money you can earn is what you earn from doing what you love. Discover what inspires you and continue to do it. Never underestimate your dreams or yourself.
5. You try to live as much as possible
“Dream as if you will live forever; live as if you will die today.” — James Dean
You recognize the beauty of life everywhere you go. You love traveling to new places. Good books never fail to fascinate you and reading is a necessity — or simply, another way to travel to different worlds. You are curious by nature and you like being called an adventurer. Education matters to you and you always seek to acquire new knowledge. You perceive languages as a way to get to know more people and opportunities (and you already know a few). You are not afraid to take risks.
True success belongs to people who work hard for it. We live in a highly competitive society, and if you want to be successful, you need to have skills, knowledge and qualities that surpass your competition. Neither having a diploma from Harvard nor depending on your charm alone will get you anywhere. You must build a positive attitude and live every day as if it is your last.
Planning ahead and thinking strategically are important factors for chasing your dreams, but don’t forget to pay attention to the present moment. Follow your intuition, for you never know where you might find an opportunity. When you do, seize it!
6. You know that magic is in the little things
Magic is not just in fairytales and books. Magic is very real. It resides in the little things in life — especially in love.
It doesn’t matter how many times it has been said: Life is indeed short and we should learn to appreciate each moment, which is no easy challenge.
Don’t forget to invest time in yourself, but also don’t underestimate the time you spend with friends and family, traveling and exploring and having deep conversations. These are the moments that matter — the moments that stay with us forever. It’s up to you to make them truly memorable and magical.
7. You don’t remember the last time you got bored
This might sound funny to you, but boredom could be a sign that you haven’t devoted enough time to figuring out your identity. Have you ever found yourself in a conversation complaining about life and how you wish for things to be different? Have you felt as if something was missing even in the company of great friends? If the feeling of being “bored” and generally unhappy keeps coming back to you, you should rethink your lifestyle choices.
We all need good friends and interesting people to surround us. Unless we spend some time on our own, we won’t be able to completely enjoy these friendships. A person can be in a crowded room and still feel alone. Consider the time you spend invested in yourself as the path to solitude rather than to loneliness.
It is in solitude where we find both the answers and the questions that are truly important to our existences.
寫給自己的一封信
這是其中一堂通識的作業，讓我順便整理一下我的心情
給親愛的你：
再次看到這樣的題目，再次提起筆寫了這封信給你。我們有多久沒有好好聊聊了？第一次寫信給你，是初三那年，面對PMR和統考那年。那一次，寫得很認真、最認真。而隨後的SPM還有高中統考，卻寫的有點心虛，或者說知道結果，但不想去改，以一個預見未來的身份去寫給現在狀況不怎麼樣的自己。但，那也是兩年前的事了。兩年後，我該寫些什麼給你呢？
大一的生活快過完了，時間真的過得很快。回想當初成績放榜之後馬上申請大學，然後經過4個月的漫長等待，其中還去了短期的英文課程，也打了兩份臨時工，還有閒閒在家的頹廢日子。拿到了通知書，依然沒有辦法從要不要再申請其他大學的想法中抽離，還在不停的為自己物色，不停的對著計算機，不停地因為無聊而找工作。而後終於結束了無頭蒼蠅的求職，繼舒展收銀員之後的在醫院推銷牛奶的工作，看著病人人來人往，但對我而言，那就是顧客。有時還於心不忍，因為他們是癌症患者啊，我怎麼還在推銷呢。之後一個月的時間和朋友聚餐、收拾行李、收拾心情，把所有的祝福一併帶來台灣。然後展開新生活。
還有18天，這學期就結束了。你所寫下的，我知道有很多都沒有實現。我還特地去翻日記，看看你對自己的承諾與期許。也許在別人眼中看來，你過得不錯，因為你有3個社團，從下學期開始就在圖書館工讀，還去應徵了皮膚科的研究助理，甚至還進了系上老師的實驗室。這樣的生活，是非常充實。沒錯，外表就是如此華麗，以致掩藏了實際的感受。在這一年的日記，你不斷地提到無法融入班上或系上，你沒有個要好的朋友。我在想，會不會是沒什麼參加系上的活動呢？你時常孤零零地一個人吃飯，一個人上課。如果不主動的話，作為傍邊就不會有人和你一起。你討厭刻意找話題與別人談，你想要融入班上隨便一個圈子，但是就是辦不到。所以失落感、孤單、渴望、難過、低落等不斷的壓抑，直到前幾天爆發，不斷在嘆氣，根本靜不下心讀書。甚至你發現為了融入，你改變了自己，你委屈求全，變成不是自己的自己。這樣的日子好累，所以到後來，你選擇了放棄，畢竟朋友不是強求的，也不是必需的。雖然還是會難過，但是，就憑着別人都不主動，我為什麼要主動去的態度，還有自己一個人也可以好好的想法撐過去。加油！你提到，你不要很多朋友，只需要知心朋友就好。你之所以難過，是因為你得不到你在乎的人的在乎。所以請看看在乎你的人是誰，好好對他們。（雖然很多人都說可以來找我，可是我怎麼好意思呢？而且就算去了，話題也是有一句沒一句的亂搭，好尷尬，倒不如不去了。）
參加的社團，你接了華僑社的幹部，踢踏舞社的副社長，推掉了慈青社的幹部邀約。哦，還有個大馬會的文書。接下來的日子勢必會更加忙碌，因為你是幹部，你再也沒有理由說因為沒興趣而不參與。是可以學到東西沒錯，但時間和精力也是同等的付出。到時候，學業勢必是第一個受到衝擊的。而你希望所付的學費能發揮最大的效能，所以你定下了每學期至少20學分的要求，要以168學分畢業，讓自己不會太閒，也確保能學到東西。而且你希望自己能雙主修或是讀碩士，而我看到目前的你比較偏向雙主修。我知道你在猶豫，畢竟雙主修選課必定會遇到衝堂的問題，而且勢必會延畢。你擔心自己無法兼顧，因為你也想要自己負擔生活費和房租，如果無法做到的話，起碼生活費不要向父母拿。那麼，你能不能負擔呢？能不能做好時間的分配？大二的課業一定會比大一忙碌，而皮膚科研究助理一職耗費太多時間（要去病理科打雜，要念論文並做成ppt匯報），但卻一定要做到今年年底。我知道你的想法是暫時放掉系上的實驗，或者直接說不要再繼續了。雖然是你自己要求進入實驗室，但是你很清楚知道你以後不會走入實驗室，因為你不想犧牲老鼠，也沒有辦法好好地為老鼠換墊料（一學期都快過完了，你一想到換墊料依然感到無比的緊張甚至到了驚恐的地步，換好之後仍需半小時來恢復心情）。雖然你知道研究就一定有犧牲，但是你還是無法接受。請再三思考吧，你當初為什麼要進去，如果真的還是沒有辦法做到，那就不要猶豫了，就放下吧。社團，你想要參與，但有活動的時候，你就無法每一個都參加，畢竟籌備的時間往往都相撞；學業，你說系上排名要維持在前8，這樣實習的時候就有保障，可是上學期沒達到，這學期要考試了連書都還沒念；打工，在圖書館工讀無法負擔生活費，皮膚科屬於半工讀性質，所以你要去外面求職，但現在卻還沒去找。
有時候，都不知道自己在忙些什麼、為什麼會那麼忙。看到別人有時間去走走或者來個生活小確幸都會好羨慕，然後不禁問自己：什麼時候到我呢？燕怡，我只能說，每個人都是各自的生活方式，而你做了選擇。但是有時候看看別人怎麼過生活，也可以反省自己的生活是不是缺少了什麼，然後再加以改進。
突然發現，當陀螺不停旋轉的日子特別容易迷失自己。到底有多久沒有好好沉澱自己了？有多久沒有好好與自己聊聊？有多久沒有好好關心自己內心真正的想法？好久好久都沒有安靜地沉醉在書香的世界，好久好久沒有提起筆寫文章。這些以前愛做的事、享受的事在上了大學之後都消失了。到底是我沒有耐性，還是漸漸失去那份閒情雅緻，抑或是我變了？曾經說過不論如何每一年都要參加文學獎，但願你還記得，在每一年的行事歷上寫上這一項。當你發現累了，發現生活日復一日、年復一年，就想拋開一切出去旅行。背包旅行是你給自己的功課，也是讓你自我成長的一種方式，請務必在大學畢業之前出去走一次，看看這個世界、再看看你自己。這也算是彌補無法當交換學生的遺憾吧。
我一直不敢為你設下太明確的目標，因為我發現大學真的充滿太多變化。但是在我看回高三那年的寫下的未來5年計劃，我發現你很棒，你一直都在朝這個方向前進，並且不斷的努力。你是個很有想法的女孩，請你保持這份衝勁，雖然我不能保證你一定會得到什麼回饋，但是我要你好好享受著過程。親愛的，生活沒有你想像中的苦，你可以很快樂地過每一天。當然，在你擁有這一切的時候，不要忘記，是誰賦予你這麼安定的生活。爸爸媽咪，弟弟，外公外婆，他們才是你這一生永遠的依靠。要好好的愛他們，與他們保持聯繫，與他們一同成長。
愛你。
燕怡
2014年6月2日筆
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